Itsbreakdowngirl/Girl Temperamental feels Neglected

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Happy Anniversary, My Sassy Boy!!!

We never really had a date for our anniversary, though I clearly remember that right about this time this year, I have decided to let myself fall in love with you completely - I have decided to let go of any ill-feeling that I still have due to my past failed relationships - and embraced you into my life. About this time last year, I have decided on my future - my life with you - as your wife, mother to y our children and your best friend.

I believe that this month is the most trying month for us so far - we have been through a lot - misunderstandings, fights, jealousy, impatience, LOVE - the unconditional kind, understanding, trust, support, acceptance, hope - the GREAT things truly outweigh the not so good ones!

For the times that I get crazy, lose my hope, get impatient, overreact, get jealous (though rarely!), THANK YOU for putting up with me. For the times that you will get crazy, lose hope, get impatient, overreact, get jealous,  expect to get the same understanding, assurance, LOVE that you continually give me.

I AM PROUD OF YOU and continue doing great - I am here and I will support you all the way - oh yes, did I say, I will wait for you,too? :)

Work it out,baby!

I've been recently addicted to FF's Body Jam 45. I like it because the songs are not all hiphop and "dancey" unlike Body Jam 44. Check out the tracklist of this great 1 hr workout!!!

1. Work (Freemasons Remix) - Kelly Rowland
2. Bring Em Out - T.I
3. Feedback - Janet Jackson
4. Killing in The Name Of - Rage Against the Machine
5. Voodoo People (Pendulum Mix) - The Prodigy
6. Livin’ A Lie - The-Dream feat. Rihanna
7. The Anthem - Pitbull feat. Lil Jon
8. Television Rules the Nation - Daft Punk
9. With Every Heartbeat (Coronell Remix) - Robyn
10. Silence - Delerium feat. Sarah McLachlan
11. Somebody Else’s Guy - Jocelyn Brown

Next to Ultimate Stress comes Fracture

The stress that I am feeling right now is what my Structural Engineering professor was talking about (back when I was still struggling to become a Civil Engineer, note Struggling.)

To understand the strength of each material in a situation like this, we need to understand a stress-strain diagram (pictured below). Each material behaves in a similar manner when placed under a load. There is a period of elastic deformation, in which the material is stretched, but it returns to its original size when unloaded. The point at which it fails to return to the original specifications is called the yield stress. Now, in an automobile, we would probably have to assume that this yield stress would be passed at some point, so most connecting rods come out of engines a different size than when they were installed.

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ERASERHEADS TOGETHER AGAIN FOR ONE NIGHT ONLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I remember the first and my last attempt to watch Eheads in concert - 2002 UP Fair - I've waited until 3:30 or 4:30 AM but the band didn't show up. There were about to breakup that time.

Eheads songs are the best road trip, love rock  songs - EVER!!!! Kahit sino kasama mo sa roadtrip - kahit saan - pasintabi sa mga banda ngayon, pero nobody can measure up to Eraserheads!!!!!!!!

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http://www.philstar.com/archives.php?aid=2008071263&type=2

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Yes, it’s confirmed: The Eraserheads are reuniting after many years of being apart, not for good but only for one show slated for Aug. 30 at the CCP Open Grounds.

According to the STAR source, all the original members (photo) are performing — Ely Buendia, Buddy Zabala, Marcus Adoro and Raimund Marasigan.

This piece of good news should make the Eraserheads fans very happy.

Said to be the ‘greatest Pinoy band,’ the Eraserheads will sing all their hit songs, including Alapaap, Toyang and Ang Huling El Bimbo.

So much water, so to speak, has flowed under the bridge since the band broke up years ago.

Ely, who survived a heart attack two years ago, has formed two bands, Mongol (which didn’t last long) and Pupil (still playing).

‘It took one big company to bring the former band members together,’ said the source who is keeping the company’s identity ‘confidential’ for the time being.

Really now, don’t the Eraserheads fans wish that the band would stay together not just for a one-night-only concert but for good...for old time’s sake?— Ricky Lo

See you at the Crossroads

My life is changing in a week's time!!! I am so grateful for the opportunity that I am presented - and all I ask from my friends is to pray for me, my happiness and my loved ones happiness!!!!

regina as the mean-time girl...

Major LOL. 

I have decided to stalk myself on Google and look what I've found - a very dramatic Xanga post back in 2005. LOL. Drama to the max!!!

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regina as the mean-time girl...

 

You know i am willing fight for you, you know that i do not have anything against her,i admire her with all sincerity, i do envy her because she has your love,

but i do not loathe her, if i could sum up the courage to talk to her, i would say that she is the luckiest girl in the world having been loved by you...i have patiently put up for the most part of being the rebound girl, tecnically i am, coz i am here, with you, but when that time comes that you can be with her finally,

my role ends..i have nagged about this at the start - about everything, but have i been nagging about it lately?

 

I have tried to let you be,listened to everything that you have to say without any hard feelings....when i was in your room, you were letting me read a great poem which reminds you of her but your head is leaning on my shoulders,and how it broke my heart and i almost cried, but i never did, i told myself i had to be strong and not showyou that i am dying inside. saying sorry because you feel that i feel i was used is not the same as saying sorry for something thatyou have done or even recognizing the fact that indeed you did something that made me feel that way.

 

I have stopped asking for your love because i know i will never have it either way - neither the passive nor the nagging regina will have you... and i was praying that somehow a miracle will bring me to you,although i dont believe in miracles...you just have to recognize the fact that that night, when we barely made conversation, i simply had to burst out like a big bubble...i have tried to distance myself from you, thinking that my feelings will die as i have experienced before with other guys,but i have not been successful and will never be... i have distanced myself to other guys thinking that if i let you feel that you made an impact on my life and somehow changed me for the better, you would realize your worth to me.

 

And i am never blaming you for all this misery, i am responsible for this, i tried to be strong and be firm and stick to everything that i tell you, but somehow i am defeated by this feeling.

Old Regina. New Regina.

Wow. It's been almost a year since I decided to get out of my comfort zone. And I am not just talking about Convergys - I am talking about my attitude of being uber temperamental and irreverent. 

From an unmotivated technical support agent, I have become our account's trusted source of reports and analysis (ummm, as for being a great coach and manager, I am still getting there, I still have a lot to learn!). 

From being caught up in my past and being ashamed of what I have not done, I now feel so free, able to let go of my disappointments and what-ifs. 

From being somebody who has been so afraid to go out on a date and would rather spend the Friday night out with her sister, I am now preparing to spend my life with somebody who has been there for me, through my ups and through my downs.

I miss Convergys. But I do not miss my attitude of mediocrity when I used to work  there. 

I miss UP. But I do not miss crying over spilled milk - over what I have done wrong. 

I miss going out on dates. But I do not miss the feeling of being so lonely after my date drives me back home, that feeling that lingers until the next day no matter how hard you ignore it.

I miss my old self. But I am loving the new Regina!

My new Globe number - 09174374949

Yes, you all know me, palit palit ng numbers just like underwear! Lol :) This mobile is work-issued, so as long as I am in Sitel, this number is stayin, baby! lol :)

And the mobile phone - not bad huh! May bluetooth, camera and FM radio! lol

After 48 years, nagkita din kami ni Rowduh!

The Jologs Queen meets the Bungisngis Princess. Hahaha. After 48 years, nakita ko na ulit si Rhoda Orbeta! The last time I saw her was before I left CVG - that was last July pa! Being the good friend that she is, we kept in touch through YM, kahit pa ba brokenhearted minsan minsan ang lola mo, bungisngis pa rin!!!

Kung di pa ako nagdecide na ayusin ang clearance ko at kung wala pa akong training sa Ortigas area, hindi ko pa makikita tong baklang to! Hahaha, so early in the morning we were like making tili sa yosi area! Amoy weewee pa dun sa pinagtambayan namin! Haha :)

At eto pa, talagang it was meant na magkita kami ngayon - dahil on my way to CVG, napadaan ako sa may RCBC Plaza sa ADB Avenue - may shooting, ang artista, si Bembol Roco! Sobrang umandar yung radar jologs ko - feel na feel ko na malapit na sa paligid si Rhoda! True enough andun sya less than 200 meters away from the shooting scene! lol.

Videoke na to sa susunod!!! lol

Linggong linggo eh ang drama mo, Regina Quibral!!!

Mabait sa akin ang kapalaran. Kahit na ba sobrang naging gaga ako dati - eto pa rin ako buhay, kumakain ng tatlong beses isang araw, may bahay na nauuwian, may mga kaibigan at pamillyang nagmamahal at nagpapasensya, sumusweldo ng kinsenas, may mga pangarap na natutupad.

Rewind. Pangarap na natutupad. Mali. Dahil sa mga ginawa ko nung aking kabataan, marami akong pangarap na hindi natupad. Iniisip ko kasalanan ko naman kaya di sila natupad. Nagpakatanga ako, tapos ngayon nagmumukmok ako dahil madami akong pagsisisi? Ang galing galing kong magsalita sa ibang tao kapat nawawalan sila ng kumpyansa sa sarili - pero hirap na hirap akong pagsabihan ang sarili ko na magiging mabuti rin ang lahat para sa akin. 

Ewan ko ba kung bakit ganito ang disposisyon ko sa buhay. Ganito talaga siguro ang pakiramdam ng mga taong halos maubusan na ng panahon - ng mga taong madaming sinayang na taon sa buhay nila. Madalas naman ay pinipilit kong maging malakas - parati kong sinasabi na marami naman akong natutunan sa mga pinagdaanan ko dati. Pero kahit anong gawin kong pagkumibinsi sa sarili ko, hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin maalis sa sarili ko na napakarami kong mga pagsisisi sa buhay ko - na hanggang ngayon ay dinadala ko pa!

Ha! Eto siguro ang epekto ng pagtratrabaho ng Sabado - nagiging madrama ka pagkagising mo kinaumagahan!!!

Things to be THANKFUL for

This day has got to be the most exhausting day in my work life ever since the Christmas promotion. 

- For the first time since I assumed the manager position, I had to impose an administrative sanction (and being friends super friends with the person made it 100 times more difficult). 

- I just found out that I will be working 6 days this week. Yeah I was on leave last Tuesday, but I am sooo looking forward to my weekend - catching up on sleep. I have only 2 supervisors on the shift - one is one scheduled leave and the other one is on emergency - I have to fill in. But then I found out that there will only be two managers for the whole 24 hour shift - so of course I had to help,too! I was so frustrated I had to take a break - go to Robinson's with Josh - buy mango sango, pancit malabon and eat our favorite shawarma rice! lol

- These crazy customer complaints!!! IN New Zealand, complaints from customers are taken seriously - there is a third party agency which oversees complaints and makes sure that the telecoms companies do something about them - the two complaints really made my head ache - I am not complaining - hmm.. yeah I was complaining about the complaints!!!

I felt so exhausted and Josh was telling me to take it easy already as I was throwing my body against the chair - looking at the construction site across our building - AND THEN IT STRUCK ME - I AM SUCH A WHINER!!!

These manongs working across our building - exposed in the sun all day - no portable toilet to relieve themselves, it was even raining earlier and they were only wearing their hardhats to protect them! Instantly, I felt a surge of energy coming from within. Here I am, earning a salary which was more than the monthly minimum wage, in just one cut-off, complaining my butt off while real hard workers are out there struggling to make ends meet! 

Boy, this was really an eye opener for me!!!!

Oo na, mukha na akong nanay!!!

Damang-dama ko ngayon ang pagiging nanay ngayong Mothers' Day! Korek, damang-dama ko sya kahit pa ba di pa ako nanay!

Pano ba naman, kumain ako sa SM Megamall - sa La Paella... habang nag-iintay ako ng order kong Seafood Paella, binigyan ba naman ako ng candy ng cashier sabay sabing, "Ma'am, Happy Mothers' Day po!". 

Oo na mukha na akong nanay - ayan ang nasa isip ko. Kung hindi lang Mothers' Day, maiimbyerna ako! Pero pinalagpas ko na lang ang mga pangyayari at sumagot ng...

Thank you!!!

Haha :)

Happy Mothers' Day, Mommy Tess!!!!

It took me 27 years before I believed in the saying 'mothers know best'. It took me tons of heartache and thousands of philippine pesos wasted before I realized that no matter how I hated it when she gets blunt on me, I still listen to her. One blog entry is not enough to tell the whole world how much she means to me!!!

My mommy has taught me that true love is possible despite the distance. My mom is my ultimate long distance love. She lifts my spirit up in times of distress - she believed in me when nobody else did. She loves me unconditionally. I know I will be a good mother to my own children because of her. 

I LOVE YOU MOMMY, HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY, AND YES, WE WILL SOON BE TOGETHER !!!!

I'm blaming that Cardio Theatre in FF Megamall!!!

It was a bad decision working out in that cardio theatre at Fitness First Mega! My throat started to itch the following day and now I got coughs and colds! :( 

I would like to let the whole world know that I have found my one great love!!!

I would like to let the whole world know that I have found my one great love!!!

Once I have struggled everyday to find my meaning in this world. Before you, I can't seem to find my place. You came into my life - gave me perspective, gave me hope and love that I haven't even asked for - and more!!! For the first time, I have realized what I am here for.

To love you back, more than you can ever imagine. To give back the love that you have been constantly giving me unconditionally. To take care of you and your well-being for the rest of our lives together. To vow with God as our witness that I will never leave you in troubled times. To bear you children whom will carry your name and our legacy of love in the coming generations. To be your best friend whom you can run to when life gives you lemons. To be your everything!!!

Your smile lights up the sky. Your soothing words boost my morale and self esteem. Your sexiness and sensuality is killing me and making me addicted to you more and more. The love that you have been continuously giving me despite the distance is immeasurable and incomparable. You are the most amazing person I have met in my entire life - and so much more!!!

We still have a lot to discover about each other - and I can't wait to be with you - though I will!!! You are willing to give so much of yourself that I can't even think of any reason why the good Lord would not want us to be together. The thought of being happy in someone else's loving arms pains me - for I would never want to be happy in another's but yours. I have chosen to fall in love with you and my decision is final!!! I take care of myself as you would for my body and love and my whole being is yours to keep.

I AM SO IN LOVE WITH YOU JOSHUA!!!!!!!!!!!!

All these years, Joshua, all these years!!!!!

in response to: http://jstymed.multiply.com/journal/item/17/Meaning_to_say_much_more

When people ask my why I have decided to love someone who is a thousand miles away from me, I just shrug my shoulders. I just can't give a valid explanation - it just happened. The only thing I want to explain is why I have robbed myself of the chance to love you a lot earlier - though time has made our love for each other stronger - this is the bond that the distance can't break.

I want to give back the love you have given me all these years - and rest assured that I am and will always be faithful to you. I do not need your reassurance that you love me, yet you still assure me!!! My fervent prayer for you, my dearest Joshua, is for God to keep showering you with blessings - may God also grant you fortitude to face the daily challenges that you have to face without me supporting you physically.

And I told you baby, I am in touch with my intuition - it works both ways - when you think about me or when you are doing something foolish. lol.

Joshua Shane Jordan, I am yours!!! :D

Tagged: "You Don't Know Stuff" About Me

+++ Tagged by TL Yayen (hailiegurl)


Post the rules:

- Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.

- Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their ten things and post these rules.

- At the end of your blog, you need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names.

- Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.



1) I joined Battle of the Brains when I was in 6th grade and actually went to advance to the monthlies. Benedictine Abbey, the school which defeated us in the monthlies, eventually became the grand champion. I once again joined the contest on my 4th year of High School - we lost by 50 pesos.

2) In 2003, while my whole family was in Texas, I decided to go to Boracay alone - via RORO. Left Cubao at 8:30 PM Friday and arrived in Caticlan at 1:30 PM the next day. I went back to Manila that way,too!

3) I am fascinated with capitals of the world. I am proud of that fact. However, in 2001, Vince, my ex-bf stumped me when he asked the capital of Lithuania (his dad's home country). I didn't know the answer back then, it's Vilnius. Haha :)

4) In 2003, I ran away from home for two weeks. However, for two weeks that I was away from home, wherever I may be that time, I made sure that I was in front of a TV set at 5:30 PM - watching Meteor Garden! Haha :)

5) I was the Student Council Chairman when I was in 6th grade. My sister Raina replaced me when I graduated. I was also the Student Council Chairman in my 4th year HS. Raina once again replaced me when I graduated. In our Junior - Senior Prom, I handed  her the Key of Responsibility for the Juniors and she handed me the Candle to Light the Way for Seniors. haha :)

6) My mom was a stage mother!!! I tried various audition pieces for Little Miss Philippines - told a story (Jack and the Beanstalk), danced Mambo # 5 complete with fruits on top of my hat, played the organ, declaimed. I got accepted, only to find out there were no more slots as the contest was about to close when I got in. Ahaha.

8) The last time I spent Christmas with my mother was back in 1996. I had a row with my father the day he left for the US. I have a long distance relationship with my mom and dad! :)

9) The first time I fell in love was I 13. Denmark is the older brother of my classmate Patrick. I've known him since I was in Kindergarten (1987), though I realized that I loved him when he was about to leave for Canada in 1995. The day before he left, I told him how I felt. That was the first time I cried over a guy, I have waited for him for about 8 years. In 2003, I have realized I was chasing a dream and let go of him. Last October, he went home and I met up with him after 13 years!!! I spent time with him but only as a friend. :) He is happily in love with his girlfriend. :) This June, he's coming back with her.

10) In early 2004, I met this charming man from Oklahoma and thought that he was just some random guy I'd be saying hi to and eventually forget. Just as I've thought, we lost contact after a few weeks of chatting with him. I started working for AT&T Internet Services in October 2004 and decided to look up his email address. We resumed communication - years passed and I have realized that I was beginning to fall in love with him but I was too scared. Apparently, he was falling in love with me and would casually joke about marrying me. In July 2007, I have given into my feelings for him and decided to reciprocate what he has been feeling for me, but guess what? After two months, we broke up right away for the distance between us was too hard. Yes, it was depressing for me but I never really got mad at him - it was the first time that I acted that way. Haha :) It took about over a month before we realized that we really can't live without each other - and yes, we have decided to wait for each other and get married. I AM TRULY BLESSED for having Joshua in my life!!!!

+++ I'm tagging:

- redrained (my sister Raina)
- jstymed (my boyfriend Joshua)
- orchidcatt (my friend and neighbor Orchid)

- banshenzi124 (my Safeguard and common sense Dio)
- sickofmyself (my beach buddy Erlyn)
- skyewhit (my Starbucks buddy and wavemate Sekki)
- rowduh (my laughing buddy, confidante and ex-teammate Rowduh)
- pierresd (my college batchmate Pierre)
- lunesolennel (my St. Paul batchmate Nina Michaella)
- brunoliddle (my Kiwi friend)

Sucker for the Wedding "Singer"

So I spent my afternoon after my work schedule in the gym, and decided to walk home from megamall for that extra calories that i can burn - and as i passed by the condo clubhouse, there they were, a young man and a woman exchanging vows in the garden beside the pool. i instantly knew they weren't catholic, but I thought it was cute. 

Okay, I'm in the condo, and let the gym clothes hang out to dry, and prepared my eggplant and rice dinner. Turned on the television for my daily dose of evening news (TV Patrol of course). I made sure that the volume was loud enough to not hear the commotion, err, wedding at the poolside. 

And then I heard the violin play "Ikaw". That's cheesy as in Kraft Cheddar cheesy, I thought.

Ad then this canned music played  "Tunay na Ligaya" by Basil Valdez. I turned the volume of my TV down. Napahagulgol ako! Hahaha!!!

I just had to blog this. Hahaha.

Shit. They are playing The Company's "Now That I Have You".

A Prayer For Patience

Got this prayer from explorefaith.org :) If there is any prayer that could exactly describe all the bottled-up emotions that I have, this would be it. :) Let us pray :)

Gracious God, it’s so hard to wait. To wait for new things to happen in my life. To wait for you to answer my prayers. To wait for the open doors that may lead me into a new way of being. During the time of waiting, it seems that all I can think of is having what it is I am waiting for. At times I feel weary of asking and waiting, and I wonder if you really hear my prayers at all, if you are ignoring me, or if you are simply refusing to give me my heart’s desire. A part of me knows that you want my best, and that your time is not my time, but Lord, it is still so hard to wait. Deepen my trust, O Lord, during the times when my heart longs for what can only come in the fullness of time. Give me a calm assurance that your will for me is grander than anything I could ever imagine. Still my mind and heart in your love so that I am mindful of the grace you are draping around me every single day, every single moment. I ask this for the sake of your love.

AMEN. :)