It's my bebe's birthday!!! :D

Even if you no longer have a Multiply account and turned to Facebook for our online PDA, I would still write something for you over here.

I am looking forward to being with you this year!!!! I am looking forward to looking at your beautiful brown eyes, looking forward to smelling your morning breath, looking forward to teaching you how to cook fried rice, looking forward to walking along the white beaches of my island. I am looking forward to carrying your name, carrying your little boys and little girls as well, looking forward to walking out on you when you fart, getting mad at you for not flushing the toilet. I am looking forward to just watch you fall asleep and get irritated with the sound of your snores - looking forward to eating your, your famous spaghetti in red sauce with italian sausage, what do you think I am looking forward to? :D

I am just tired to not be without you, and a few more breaths is all I need until I get to be with you. One minute away from you means a minute closer to you, and yes, we have been through a lot, though for two people in love who came in two opposite worlds, we still have a lot to discover about each other.

I love you Joshua, Happy Birthday and God bless you always!!! :D

THAT IGNORAMUS CALIFORNIA GARDEN SQUARE GUARD DOESNT KNOW WHAT DISABILITY ACCESS MEANS.

Tomorrow, my niece will undergo MRI scan at the Makati Med. She has been diagnosed with double-curve scoliosis from previous x-ray and ct scan tests, the initial findings revealed that there is also a possibility of mild cerebral palsy. She also has this small dimple at her back called spina bifida - in layman's term something is not right with her spinal column - she cries in pain at night, she easily gets tried and her feet and side hurt that we have to carry her most of the time.

So now, you would understand why I am fuming mad when that outpost guard refused entry to her and my aunt at the complex gate that is near our condo tower. The reason? MANAGEMENT POLICY. What the f*ck. They wanted my frail auntie who had to carry my 5-year old niece all the way from Bulacan while also carrying the CT scan and xray results to use the main gate which is totally on the other side of the condominium complex just because they don't want to break the orders of the management. WHAT ABOUT THE LAW FOR DISABILITY ACCESS???? 

My auntie was pleading for them to let her in - the guard was stubborn - and the two other guards said nothing. My auntie was showing them her CT scan results and told them that they are from the hospital and that she is sick and we don't want to hurt. NO THEY REMAINED STUBBORN. In the end my aunt had to get a tricycle to go to the other gate - and still walked while carrying my niece - THE PAVEMENT WAS SLOPING DOWN.

What made me more furious was this: 

THE GUARD DIDNT EVEN APOLOGIZE.

THE GUARD LOOKED AWAY WHILE I WAS TALKING TO HIM. 

HE REFUSED TO GIVE HIS NAME WHEN I TOLD HIM I WILL BE PRESSING CHARGES, 

HE WAS INSISTING THAT HE DIDNT KNOW MY NIECE WAS SICK (HELLO, MY AUNT WAS CARRYING THE BIG BROWN CT SCAN ENVELOPE AND SHE WAS PLEADING). 

HE WAS INSISTING THAT HE WAS JUST FOLLOWING MANAGEMENT ORDERS.

HE ONLY GAVE HIS NAME WHEN I TOOK A PICTURE OF HIM USING MY CAMPHONE.

THE TWO OTHER GUARDS REFUSED TO GIVE THEIR NAMES CLAIMING THAT THEY DIDNT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH IT - THE MERE FACT THAT THEY WERE THERE AND DIDN'T RECONSIDER AND JUST SHUT UP MADE THEM AS GUILTY.

I have handled all kinds of crazy irrational complaints from crazy customers all over New Zealand and the least that I want to do is to complain about something non-sense. If they would deny me entry because the management said so, I would gladly obey and understand - they are just doing their jobs - but hey, WE ARE FRIGGING TALKING ABOUT THE LAW HERE!!!

Today, I fell of the stairs.

I missed worked today. I was preparing to go, went to my room to get dressed, got dizzy and boom fell off the stairs. Butt first.

My body got sore. My sister saw me cry from the pain. I called my boss trying to hide the pain in my voice. I cried like a baby, stopped, and cried some more. I haven't fallen from the stairs in such a long time. It hurt like hell. 

I tried to be okay, it's not like the first time this happened to me. Tried to walk, tried to brush off the pain. It is still there. I can still feel it. I can still imagine myself falling off the stairs. 

I said I will be okay about this, I will not mind the pain, though reality struck me, it will take time before the pain goes away. I will not rush. I will just let it heal on its own.

The Power of Love ? ! .... or Punctuation Marks

Today I have managed to pissed off my boyfriend - all because I have misinterpreted a simple message free of punctuation marks. 

The way I read the message was wayyy different that what it really meant. And because of that, I let myself feel unnecessary anguish and frustration on his part.

I am sorry baby. My paranoid butt cheeks are all yours to spank. :( (too much info!)

My Angel, My Niece, My Frances and Her Condition

Today we bought a dress for Frances, our beloved niece, for Christmas Day which happens to be her birthday. She wanted a sleeveless satin/polka dot dress and her face glowed when she tried it on. 

We had to get another dress for her because the one she picked made her special bone condition obvious. She appears to have a chicken breast and/or scoliosis. I am no doctor to give you the correct term of her condition, though if you look at her profile, her lower back is curved, her shoulders are not leveled, her right chest rib seems protruded and she has difficulty bending her neck. 

For a little girl who loves to dance and is good at it, having this kind of condition means having to endure possible wearing braces, worse, undergoing through an operation, and the thought of her undergoing these scare me and make me bleed inside. Our only prayer right now is that she is given immediate medical help (I am just an aunt, I do not decide on how to go about this!). I am asking my friends to pray for her. She is such a gentle soul and she doesn't deserve this to happen to her.

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why would some woman stay in a place where she is no longer needed and wanted?

BWISIT!!!!

Ang aga aga binibwisit mo ako! Kung pangit araw mo wag mo akong idamay at pagbuntungan ng galit!!!!!! Pinapasaya lang kita!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahahaha GOOD MORNING PILIPINAS!!!!!!

He is back for good and I am still emotional about it

I am blaming my sister for playing Take That's Back for Good and stirring up the emotions that I have inside. After a year of having Joshua in my life, I can't believe that I almost lost him at around this time last year.

The last weekend of September 2007 has got to be my most emotional weekend in recent years - that was when I thought I have lost the love of my life to another woman. I have kept quiet about it and showed no signs of anger and bitterness, only extreme loneliness and acceptance of the fact that I have almost lost my chance of finding true love. Looking back, I realized that I was in a denial state the time he asked space, and just as he was happy for me being happy with some other guy at the early stages of our friendship, I have told myself that I would have to be happy for him,too.

He is now back for good, and I can't believe how lucky and grateful I am having him! 

(I started writing this with Back for Good on the background, now my sister's playing Backstreet Boy's All I Have to Give on her Mac! lol)